Ashamed
2007-10-31Im ashamed to have to blog abt this but i think i've kept quiet a lil too long.
I keep reading blogs after blogs abt this issue and i keep telling myself to let it go, just fuck it and things will improve. I keep telling myself tt as long as you have hope and faith, things wun get worse.
I think im wrong. Or at least for now i am.
Today i read an entry on how Alfian Saat was called down to the police station for 'harassing' Dr Thio on her thots against gay sex ie e infamous section 377 and 377a.
In e past weeks that i've been surfing ard, i told myself not to get too emotional abt this since afterall i am not gay.
But i dun think i can let my emotions be fluid any longer. Theres this rage in me that's boiling and before I start lashing out at homophobic pple, i feel its best i just pen it down to let it out.
Let me start by first saying that the word homosexual is one helluva dirty word. Ironic isnt it? I am totally against the word, not the group of people. For one, why do we need to label a group of fun loving people with something so derogatory?
What is wrong with being gay or lesbian or not straight?
Don't fucking tell me cuz e bible, e quran, e whatever said so. None of us ever follows e bible or quran 100% and unless you do, dun come and fucking tell me tt its wrong to be gay or lesbian.
Dont fucking tell me its wrong to fall in love with someone of the same sex.
Dont fucking tell me its wrong to caress and shower someone of the same sex with love.
Dont fucking tell me its wrong to get physically intimate with e same sex and orgasm.
Dont fucking tell me any of this is wrong cuz as far as im concerned, i believe in e fairness of everyone whether theyre gay or not.
I am just so ashamed tt a country who prides itself on being a first world country can be so narrow minded about such issues. First was the blowjob thingy and now this?
Lets face it, this isnt just abt gays. We're all narrow minded people. We do this to every minority group.
Do you really think this is just abt HIV? No. We're just narrow minded pple who cannot accept others who are not like us. We are discriminating gays just like how we discriminate against the Malays, Indians, Mentally retarded, Physically retarded and everyone else who isnt normal like how WE THINK THEY SHOULD BE.
Don't lie. Dont pretend this is not true. Dont tell me we aint a group of racist buncha people who actually love our mentally and physically challenged people or the Hari Raya and Deepavali celebrating neighbors of ours.
You know why? Cuz its all a facade.
Truth is, we're all just a group of super shallow and super narrow minded people.
And what's e saddest thing of all is, how can u go all way out to purposely cause problems for people?
Do all of you who are homophobic think tt gay men PURPOSELY wanna be gay? Do you all seriously think they enjoy being humiliated and stared at in public?
How wud u feel if u were gay just like them?
Dont just discriminate gay men just cuz they hug and hold hands in public..if u wanna discriminate and make it illegal for them to be together, then why not make it illegal for students below e age of 16 to date so as to prevent unwanted abortions?
Why not just come up with a whole long list of other illegal items? Do u seriously think tt gay men are soo gonna stop being gay with 377 and 377a being in use?
Who are u all kidding? Behind closed doors, ANYTHING can happen!
Its just so sad tt we discriminate against gay men. There have been so many successful gay men who hiding in their closet just so they can remain sane and accepted in society.
There are people like Alfian Saat and many more who are way smarter, creative and have made more contributions to society than e average straight man out there..yet we still choose to label and discriminate these people.
Sometimes i wonder what if e worse happened and YOUR VERY FLESH AND BLOOD, YOUR VERY OWN SON comes out gay?
Are you going to despise him and not acknowledge e very fact tt this is ur loved one?
I know some of u will say tt its different when its ur own flesh and blood but tts not e issue at end.
My point is simple. There will always be repercussions to repealing section 377a like more people get infected with HIV, more men openly making out in public etc but then I ask, why not make it illegal for lesbians? How come it isnt illegal for women to kiss and make out in public?
But that of course is another issue altogether.
I just feel tt by discriminating and ostracizing this group of people, its only gonna allow our future generation to discriminate and ostracize just abt every other group of pple who are not 'normal'. How then do u classify normal? I agree with how some pple say religion and politics shd never mix. I know its hard but tt shd be e case.
I feel really sad when I look ard and see how some of my gay friends have to go ard and pretend their straight just to be accepted by society. Some of them have to put on a mask just so they can get a job and support their old parents.
Its simple to say tt they shd just become straight. It's always simple to say they shd change when i feel that WE should change our mindset.
Being anti-gay is just like being anti-mixed marriages, just that the former is actually illegal. But just imagine the pain and torture these 2 groups of pple have to go thru just cuz of narrow minded pple like some of you out there?
Btw, e next time i hear another fucked up piece of shit head say “Ewww” to gay men, i swear im so gonna slap your face!
That aside…
And to think we're e same country who is trying to promote Singapore as a multicultural and diverse country. Diverse alright..we're so diverse in thinking tt some of us are anti-gay and some of us are pro-gay.
I know i sounded angry in my first few paragraphs but i couldnt help it. I was really seething with anger just reading the other entries.
Theres nothing wrong with being gay. Why do pple keep making such a big deal with it? What is wrong with their anal sex and all? Instead of finding them repulsive, why not look at ourselves? Do you really think tt straight couples do not indulge in anal sex and blowjobs? Instead of being narrow minded, why dont we just educate everyone?
This issue isnt ever gonna end cuz e issue isnt just abt gay men or gay sex. The issue is that we're just a group of terribly narrow minded people and i'm afraid, im ashamed to be part of this.
To the gay men out there who have openly stood out and fought for your rights, I salute you; for this isnt an easy battle to win. Nevertheless, your courage most definitely needs to be saluted.
To the homophobic narrow minded losers out there, I pray hard, very very hard that you do not end up having kids who choose to be gay for that would be one helluva terrible retribution.
God bless.
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