I sometimes think I'm too harsh and am running away from the reality.

It's nice that RT made me see how humane some people can be and what love is.

I feel warm and fuzzy now

:)

I can't believe this was the conversation I heard this morning when I went to the toilet. Can't believe there are actually people who have this warped mentality!

-_-

I feel so sad.

'He' has got me a new vibrator but who cares. I love BOB!

My thrusty pink vibrator. It's been 8 long years. (what a pun..)

I feel unmotivated to do anything else but hold on to it hoping tt it wud vibrate once more.

Sigh..

Oh dear, do I sound like that too?

I always thot I sounded girly and in fact some of u who have spoken to me on the phone always comment tt you're surprised I sound e way I do.

Hmmm, and what's tt supposed to mean?

Dang, maybe I sound like a 30 over yr old woman too huh

Or do i sound girlish?

I turned ard to look for 'him' but he was in e shower.

Im not one who enjoys hanging ard my ONS so i quickly put my clothes on and crept away.

Few days passed and I completely forgot abt it.

Last night, my friend invited me to one of her friend's house party. It was her friend's bf's bday and they were having a party. 

The moment I walked into e condo area, I thot it looked familiar. Afterall I had left in the morning, last nite I was going over at night. Somehow my bimbotic mind did not manage to connect e 2 together.

Anyways, I went up to their house and my jaw drop. It was then it hit me. I was at this place last week.

As i was trying to unshock myself, 'he' appeared with my friend's friend.

OH HOLY FUCK.

I shook his hand and quickly pulled back, immediately looking away. At the corner of my eye, I could see he remembered me.

Even before I could get over e shock, my friend's friend announced, “thanks for coming to our engagement party!”

I SWEAR MY EYES ALMOST JUMPED OUT AND COMMITTED SUICIDE ON MY BEHALF..

I turned to my friend and exclaimed, “i thot u said it was a bday party..i only brought wine to celebrate..err guess we need more now?” 

OH HOLY HOLY FUCK!!!

great, how e hell in e world did i cross e line?

last nite i could barely utter a single word. i sat at e corner of e house and spent most of it away from him. he tried to come over but i took e initiative and left e hse instead.

oh my, what am i gonna do now? i feel really really weird.

urghhh 

I was supposed to pen down a goodbye note but work kept me too busy to even pee what more log on and blog.

My life is so sad huh. Quit my old job and this sucks even more :S

Even more sad is how nobody emailed me over e past 2 weeks! Ok I lied, SOME of you emailed but oh well..

Someone emailed me asking whether I got attached to my ex-boss hence the lack of updates cuz i was too busy fucking him.

Errrr..

No comments =X

HAHAHAH

But yea, really, if someday I stop blogging for over a mth (considering it took me only a fortnight to fail cold turkey!!!) then perhaps I really closed my blog down and was too caught up to say goodbye. And perhaps I might just come back..perhaps I might not..

Hmm..i don't sound coherent at all..

Anyways, just wanted to let u all know that i'm alive.. *waves*

I might be starting another blog elsewhere. Some of u might already know e reason why, and if u do, chances are u'll be getting e new URL. 

Ok i'm getting too tired. 

Nites  

But nah, he was just asking me out for dinner..just pure dinner.

I met up with him earlier this week and *cough cough* he asked me what I saw him as. Whether I think he's cute or not.

And if tt wasn't odd enough, he told me tt he's looking for a wife.

He's 36 btw.

Hmm..do I look like marriage material? I don't think so ya know..Ok nvm, i'm too thick skinned. I shall take it tt hes just sharing his thots with me and tt he isn't hinting at anything.

And for the first time ever, I actually felt odd when a man paid for my meal. I get men paying for my meals all the time but it didn't feel right when he paid. I felt as tho I was agreeing to something (which I don't know what it is) in return for the free meal.

To think this is the fellar who used to be so serious with me during work. And now he's treating me to dinner and even asked me out during dinner itself, whether im free next week to catch Rule #1 with him.

And for the first time also, my hair stood when he touched my back to bring me to sit down. I notice he's suddenly touching me more than usual. Sometimes it's just a pat on the shoulder, sometimes it's just 'accidentally' brushing against me and the other day, he grabbed my wrist to cross the road like as tho i'm a small kid who dunno how to cross e road! *gasps*

And when we walked pass Gucci at Taka, I casually told him how annoyed I was tt the bag tt I wanted wasn't available in Singapore. To my surprise, he said tt if I wanted, he could get it for me.

Perhaps i'm just over reacting. He's just being normally extra nice rite? Right right right?

Hmm..

Would you date your ex-boss?

That aside, my new job is killing me!!!

:(

I wanna quit!!

URGHHHHHHH